evilpencil

Been neglecting Deviant for awhile... not on purpose.

Myspace is an epidemic.

"ART IS NOT A MIRROR HELD UP TO REALITY, BUT A HAMMER WITH WHICH TO SHAPE IT." BERTOLT BRECHT


...damn I'm deep.

Sitting here in the library waiting for my Pop Culture class to begin. Teacher sucks in that one, which is a shame cause I enjoy almost all the things that are involved with pop culture.

Haven't hung with many friends in days. I miss the days when we were all living around the same area and a game of Mario Party was all it took to bring us together. Kinda feel like I need to throw a get together or something just to get them out of their hiding places. Although I have no money what so ever. Maybe in December...

Oh yeah, got cut off and hit a curb going 40 on Mon. while going to a class. That blew out both of my tires and eventually led to $900 dollars in damage to the axel and alignement (sp?) which makes me officially a poor college student.

Money is such a pain. Its a love hate relationship from which I never seem to come out ahead. So no big spending will be coming from me anytime soon. Although I need to find a present for Mile on his b-day. Just might have to get an extension on that due date...

Past few days have been alittle rough.

Got jerked around emotionally by a girl who works with Mile. First night we met, she hung out with me and Migs, and by the end of the night we had hugged, kissed and ended up in my room watching Pulp Fiction. Sounds good huh?

Well over the next few nights, she started acting more disstant and last Sunday, she hung out with me and Migs again and basically told him and I why she doesn't like me.
She said I was too nice, that I'm not as cool as Mile and Migs... fuck'd up huh?

Well that tore me up for the past few days. I'm still bummed about it, but I think I'll get over it.

School is getting harder, but then again, I havent had much time to work on assignments.

Might go see Dan this weekend if I can get coverage on shifts.

I also need a new hair style. Something long and emo maybe, dye it black... I'm just throwing ideas out there.

Music in the car: Nirvana's 'In Utero'
Movie on the screen: Ren & Stimpy season 3

Here at school, got nothing to do till 2pm...

Was gonna hang out last night with a girl I met on monday, but she flaked. We really hit it off though, and were takeing a likeing to each other quite hevily. I was thinking it was some kind of halucination, (a girl liking me for a change,what the hell?) I have a witness too, Miguel can back me up on this one.

So I'm left wondering what's going on in her head, and if that was just some sort of one-night-stand int he emotional department.

Relationships = unwanted highschool drama. How do the others make it seem so easy?                ...I dont know...

Its hot as a bastard in here, all of these people are either on their myspace site or looking up something else non-school related. Of course, that includes me. I blend into the crowd while at the same time pushing to find myown space.

Oh, and by the way, no one will ever touch my god damn hair again. It is really pissing me off how ridiculous my hair looks now.

Its kinda surreal and lack-luster, mainly because nothing is gonna happen, I just figured I would be more excited about my 21st birthday.

Back when I was a kid, thinking that when you turn 21, a world of posibilities becomes avaliable. You get to drink, you get to gamble, walk into a bar, melt people with your mind, seduce women with a giant fart, turn water into orange soda, etc... guess I was off on one or two of those.

Went to school, and today was the start of models in my art class. Long story short, an elderly lady with, what plastic surgeon's would call an 'apron,' stomach was the choice of my teacher. Ughh, it was disturbing to say the least.

Got some cd's from Rasputin's and went to work till 11 at night. Oh well, I better party hard next year.